GAH! I have applied to 13 jobs today. I have filled out more applications and written more cover letters, and let me tell you how this technology is screwing everything up.
Most jobs you apply directly on their website. You can upload your resume, but you still have to type everything in, so what is the point, exactly? So I've typed my resume no less than 13 times today, even though I have a perfect copy that I tried to upload (as an added bonus, on the websites where you can upload your resume, it won't accept the newest, Office 2007 version. UPDATE YOUR SITES, employers!). So I have revamped my resume once again, saved it in the OLD 1997-2003 version of Word, and still manually typed in my information (are you hearing this? I can do data entry!)!
The last website was the worst. It's a bank website, and I was applying as a teller. I filled out my entire resume yet again, retyped it all, hit submit, and got an error message that their site is not working. So after all that CRAP, I still haven't even applied. Do they have any idea how exhausting and ego-damaging it is to do this to every site? Every time I apply I have to think of something new to say, some way to make me sound better, I'm sick of trying to up-play myself. I am a good employee the way I am, with the experience I have. I keep trying to think of ways I can sound more desirable, more "good" at my life. Augh, just looking at that phrase is making me nauseated.
So today I have applied at:
-2 Separate jobs at Macy's
-A Book Store in the Airport
-3 other places in the Airport
-Culligan Water Receptionist/Clerk
-4 Medical offices for Records Clerk
-A Bank - Wait, scratch that, I did NOT apply to the bank after all
-A Grocery Store Inventory Specialist
-A Tour Guide at the Underground Aquarium
You've just got to be kidding. Out of all of these, I'll be lucky if I hear from one. This is just really unbelievable. How long will I have to do this? I spend 4 hours a day looking for work...that's a part time job with NO pay. I'm in an internship of my own life, but without the credit. Hopefully there is a paying position at the end of this internship.
I've been throwing around the idea of going back to school. I can't do that until next year, because last year I made too much money. Even if I go back to school, I still have bills, and I won't even make it to January if I don't work now. Lord help me.
I think maybe I should clarify what I'm doing here. This is a way for me to release my tension and fears about not working, while (hopefully) laughing at my mistakes. I hope someone learns from my mistakes. This is therapy for me. I have a lot of talents, and I work very hard. But there are days when I feel like I'm losing it, and right now this is one. Every time I put myself out there, I try to keep my emotions neutral, just hoping and praying to at least get an interview. I'm exhausted and bummed right now, but I look forward to reading your comments; I realize then I'm not alone! :)
I know it's only been an hour since I put in my last application, but why are they not calling? If I got my application, I'd be on the phone immediately. I think I just want a farm now; grow my own food, become the crotchety recluse that kids are afraid of, make jam. Yeah, right now Jam sounds like the way to go. If I won a small number in the lottery and could pay off all my debt, then I'd not have to worry nearly as much :).
I really should eat something; I tend to get over dramatic when I'm hungry. Ha ha ha, I'm like Tuve's mom on "My Big Fat Greek Wedding"..."Oh, Tuve, Eat Something!" Because she doesn't know what to say. I'm going to eat a healthy lunch and then get back to the grind!
This is just a little dip before the obligatory bucking up. I'll be fine. I'm just venting because I am trying to get a freaking job, and it shouldn't be this hard.
Today's Song of the Day is "Moonshadow" by Kate Rusby. She's awesome.
http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/song/Moonshadow/5632483
No comments:
Post a Comment